Monday, January 14, 2013

i might have lost it forever

long back when i was hurt so badly that it was too difficult to even breathe , i had imagined that if i could somehow lock my heart overflowing with grief and pain , somehow contain the damage done, and throw the key into the bottom of an unknown ocean , it would help me. It did, yet now, when i try to reach out to my own heart, my own emotions , i still find them locked , and i fear i might have lost the key , Forever!
the thing about grief is that , there are no short cuts , you can dam the overflow, but someday the dam breaks and then it's only untamed fury that floods everything that comes it's way. so i stand here today , bereft of my ownself , my own emotions, like a relic of a building lost to a tragedy.